Day #2

Since this is my private diet journal, I'm going to be honest, which includes sharing my feelings. 

Day #2 was no fun. I had a headache, but took no pills. Geo did NOT have this side effect. I think this is being caused by no sugar/carbs. I felt completely depressed. When I went down to the treadmill, I took some pictures to record the "before." It was horrible. I don't know how I let myself get into this condition. It's humiliating. I'm at my highest weight ever, and my lowest self-esteem. I feel old, and know that if I can lose the weight, I'll feel so much more youthful & energetic & happy & lovable.

So, I followed the diet, but also slept the day away.

Bette has said repeatedly that we both have 'apple' shapes vs. 'pear' shapes. It's true, but I *hate* that she says this. I want to eliminate my round belly, just so I never have to hear this again. I do think it will be easier to look good because of this shape, however. The hippy pear shape gals have a really hard time of it. So, in a strange way, I'm also grateful for this body type. 

Another humiliation is that with this added weight, I'm snoring. Loudly. So loud that George can't sleep with me. We begin together, he elbows me like mad to roll over, and eventually I'm banished to the couch in the other room, with a door closed between us. He still comes out in the middle of the night to wake me to roll over and stop the noise. I *really* want all that to stop. 

I've been moody, on the edge of tears, all day. Bummer. But I stuck to the diet, no cheating.